Today, while the ladies were preparing in a seductive dress and the men were turning their swag on for Sadies, I did also.
But with donuts.
I don’t regret my decision to not go to Sadies. Actually, I’m pretty happy that I didn’t. Because today, I realized what my happy place is: it’s the feeling of being thankful while sitting alone and listening to a few oldies. It’s pretty simple.
But difficult. It’s difficult to be thankful when everything is going so wrong. It’s difficult to be thankful when you feel like the whole world is going against you. It’s difficult to be thankful when you don’t like every day of your existence. But most of all, it’s difficult to be thankful when you don’t love yourself.
It’s been a challenging journey to loving myself. Right now, all I’m trying to do is to slow down because I’m digging my grave too quickly.