It’s difficult to fathom the changes that are undergoing in my life right now.
I’m struggling–with knowing, with feeling, with being. I’m lost.
My thoughts aren’t sequential and connected.
I wish I knew how to explain how I’m feeling. Because at one point, I feel extremely lucky to be alive and to be where I am right now. The next minute, I want to crawl into a ball and just be left alone. I want to disappear from this Earth and not leave a trace behind. I don’t know what to do or what to be. I don’t know what to think, what to feel, and what to do.
I think the most important thing right now is for me to be positive. I’m going to keep trying. One step at a time–I’ll move forward.